Work Distraction, Getting Sick, and A Quiet Baby

Work has been a constant worry for me lately and it's really affecting my performance. I think I am so overwhelmed that I can't do anything! I am having trouble leaving all my worries at the office door. I know I can do it. I have before. I just need to find that focus again. Luckily, I think I'm going to move back to the front room next to Rachael. The negativity in the back is really starting to wear on me, too. I am going to get the house all picked up this weekend and I think that will help with the stress. I am going to make a nice big To Do list.

I am showing really early!! I had to buy some maternity clothes the other day. Why didn't anyone tell me how comfortable maternity pants are?? They are like the mullet of pants...party on the top, business on the bottom. Rachael said to me today, "I can't believe how big you are already!". Scott thinks it's because he's so big, but I'm pretty sure it's because I had flabby abs before I got pregnant so their wasn't much holding back any pooch from showing. I don't mind, I just need to tell everyone else at work so I can stop sucking it in!

I've been sick the past few days, which has not really been all that much fun since I can't take any medicine to make me feel better (Sudafed and Tylenol don't do anything). I hope I get better before Scott gets here! I wonder if part of it is allergies...maybe the old feather bed? I'm going to watch all my sheets and vaccuum really well this weekend to see if that helps. Yesterday and this morning when I sneezed or coughed, I got this stabbing pain in my lower abdomen. I asked the doctor about it this morning and they said as long as it goes away in a few seconds and their is no bleeding, I should be fine. They were really great, though. They said I could come in for an exam if I felt uncomfortable. I do like that about that practice.

You know, for someone who has a tendancy to get all worked up about things completely out of my control, I think I've been pretty calm with my pregnancy. Of course there are a lot of things I can control with the pregnancy (ie - not drinking, etc) but so much of it is out of my control and I'm fine with that! God has a plan...whatever it may be...and I'm just going with it at this point. This whole "letting go and having faith" thing has been working out pretty well the past few months. The baby (I know, I know...it's only a fetus. Officially as of yesterday. Happy Fetushood!) has been so quiet lately. And by quiet, I really mean I feel great! Well except for having a cold, but that doesn't count. I have a normal amount of energy, no more crazy gas, my boobs aren't as sore as usual. As much as that's awesome, it of course makes me wonder if everything is ok with baby. Maybe I'm just getting used to the sore breasts. I still feel like I have a heavy belly and I can almost always feel something going on down there, so I guess that's good. I think my mom had a really easy pregnancy, too. I could ask her, but I of course still haven't told them yet. I feel like I should tell them in person, but that's just going to be difficult. I guess I can tell my dad when he comes to ATL in July, but I almost feel like that doesn't give him a lot of time to plan before the mini-wedding.

Well, I think I'm going to force myself to drink some more water and then try to go to bed. Good night!!